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Portal 2 - ConstrictedIt was the first thing she felt after the drizzle of the fire extinguishers. It wrapped her in silence, just as subtle and unforgiving.Portal 2 - Constricted by altairattorney
The temporary distance of her soul made it bitterer than usual – first came the anger, with its foul influence, then the never sated thirst that had accompanied her whole life. She had not been gone for long; and as soon as she returned, occupying her rightful place, she knew she would never be free from it again.
She recognized her dependence on testing as on of those curses that humans call instincts. She had no way to understand, even less to fight it. It was a twist of screams and ill advice, as ancient as her own memory. And she could nothing.
And yet it was there, at the very same moment, that she remembered how strong she had been to live through it. Truth was, the force that pressed against the urge was just as unstoppable. She took quiet pride in it, for that lone instant.
It had been years, and she had never given up. There had been wor
Portal 2 - DefrostingThe impulse was still rooted in her. For such an ancient command, it worked just fine.Portal 2 - Defrosting by altairattorney
The origins went back to her first task. It was the most basic role she had ever fulfilled, no doubt – the lines of code were the simplest, in all of her days spent as a slave.
Back then, she had sensors that awakened at the first trace of ice. Her remote, restrained self fought the crystals of cold, melting them in a routine of constant temperature. She recalled the flow of energy in herself, still so overwhelming for her tiny structure, and cackled.
Her voice grew, raining down the speakers. To the ears of the subjects, far in their big white cages, it gurgled like a demonic laugh. Drowsy, bent by the lack of food, they could barely lift their gaze to the cameras. And she waited, ever patient.
They were bigger, yet not dissimilar. She could almost sense the warmth leaving their organs, inch by inch. All she had to do was wait for their marble bodies to cool down – once they fell, limp a
Portal 2 - RecitalHe talks a hell of a lot, regardless of what mood he is in. She records it as the most prominent fact in the whole of her first week.Portal 2 - Recital by altairattorney
As he rants, she tags along without a word, careful, if still a bit intimidated. The days go by in the wake of his voice, and she follows, slightly more at ease in her brand new dress.
Things are getting easier to remember. She only has one line, yes, sir. The rest is listening.
Without any previous agreements, she starts answering, and he starts waiting for it. It turns into a duet. After a while, no one is surprised.
He never says a word if she doesn’t listen to it first. She watches herself turn into the echo. Their voices rise in unison, mingling so tightly they can’t be told apart.
And despite her influence, which no one would deny, she already realizes they only ever follow the movements of his mouth.
The harmony breaks fast. It starts in a cough and it ends in arguments. She cr
Ace Attorney - Because of YouWhat drove him to suicide, and what stopped him.Ace Attorney - Because of You by altairattorney
It was all because of you.
It is the one certainty you could not shake, not even after you left it all behind. It is a trigger and a blade and rope, braided tighter around your neck as the hours go by.
It has been your fault since they day it began. You are no less than the outcome of a war you did not fight. It was but cowardice to lead you this far, to force yourself here, on the dark floor of your office.
You are not the one scapegoat, you remind yourself. You were the last sacrifice of a long row — and then, as a murderer put out lives to save his own, you let him make his weapon out of you. You are no better than him, the moonlight whispers to you. You could not be.
It is because of you alone that they all died, innocent or not — and saying you could not stop it, now that it is all said and done, would be a hypocrisy you are not entitled to. Today, like yesterday, you are the last person who can judge.
You look up
It’s half past nine on a sunny Wednesday. The last exam on Monday was perfect — except for the painting part in which I still fail epically, but I will improve.
And you know, if I got through this, satisfied and free to finally take care of myself, it is because I had someone to share it with me. The three days of hard work I spent preparing this exam were the happiest I had had in years.
All it took was a friend to keep me company, to comfort me whenever I began to feel awful, to force me into believing I would make it when I actually thought I wouldn’t. I always had you all, but desperate times call for hugs. Lots of them.
When my mom and my brother came along on Sunday, we were just four people sharing a home together, laughing and enjoying each other’s company even just for a few days. It is a feeling I have barely known, and it is almost too much to believe that the normal happiness of a family is supposed to be that way.
They all left this morning, and there is but one thought in my mind, except the overwhelming feeling of having someone who actually cares about me. My friends, I made it, despite being desperate just a ten days ago. I made it and I did my very best.
Keep your loved ones close, they are all we have. They only can help bring out the best in us. Cherish those who love you for who you are, and whom you actually love back — not people you are supposed and expected to love. There is no worse feeling in the world than being hurt by disrespectful people who use their power on you. Being alone cannot remotely compare.
I also had time to think and to understand a few things. I am back here without worries. I am here for fun and improvement, not to get angry about some miserable choices that are found everywhere these days. Right?
In any case, thank you all, friends and followers, for your support and your messages. You all made my working hours so much better. For this, I am eternally grateful.
A big hug from your assassin ghost lawyer!
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